Okay, I have a bit of a confession for you guys. I know that lately, I've been a little cold and robotic when it comes to the subject of women and relationships. But I am here today to assure you, ladies and gentlemen, that I am still the chase-down-the-train, stop-the-flight, heart-on-my-sleeve romantic that I've always been. The truth is, since my break-up, I wanted nothing to do with the whole lot for a while. Just a little time away from all the love-me, sacrifice for me, give-me aspect of relationships. My ex was... for lack of a better word... needy. She needed a lot of attention and tending to. The attention thing I didn't mind. I reveled in it at first, actually. But eventually, the novelty wears thin. After the whole thing, I couldn't stand the thought of being needed, like a relationship hangover. I looked at people in relationships and rolled my eyes, imagining that a committed relationship was social suicide. In my mind, we were fisherman in the middle of an ocean full of fish, and instead of casting wide nets, these fools were using fishing poles and their best bait.
But those fishermen with the poles have a point. While some of us heave and ho and slave away, trying to catch 'em all, those men sit in their canoes, sipping beer and soaking up the sun, content in finding that one catch that will fill their bellies and leave them content. Anyway, enough with the fishing metaphor, I don't know enough about it and it was on the verge of getting a little thin.
But the point is, while I'm out here chasing rabbits, I may have a few trophies to bring back and show off for a little, but it's nothing like having that one reliable person to spend those quieter times with. I still believe in relationships and all that true love shit. I'll still break down and tell a girl how beautiful she is and that she deserves better, or go all the way out of my way to make sure that not only are her tears dry, but they won't be returning any time soon. The thing is... I won't be letting that side make any of the decisions for a while.
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