So... there's a problem. There's been a return of an old female friend. Not an ex-girlfriend or anything, but someone who wants to get close. She's looking for a relationship. She's cute, she's nice, it's just... I really don't want that right now. Honestly, I'm getting happier knowing that I'll be out of the country again soon. This is just too much. I mean, I like the company, and I really like the physical part, but I got out of a relationship for a reason.
I loved my ex, and on some levels, still do, but I'm over her, and I'm ready to move on. I'm happy she's happy, you know, got a job she loves, a guy she can obsess over, all these new things to obsess over like the Joker, and Childish Gambino, and... sex. All of which weren't there before I came around. I feel a lot like I left her in a good place in her life. That's cool and all but I mean I'm passed the whole captain save-a-... you know. I'm at a point where I need to focus on me and just relax. I mean I say all that just to say that I really don't want to be in a relationship. But I kinda like this chick... especially how convenient she is. I have three months left here and am in no mood to be trying to start up something new. I know that the smart move would be to just not contact her anymore and let the whole thing fizzle out. But then again, I haven't been laid since the Norwegian chick (Mmm... the Norwegian chick) and so that leaves me in a dilemma. I really want to narrow down the odds of me leaving the country without even having an American girl be the last taste on my tongue... (wow I sound like a sex-crazed dog). But I mean, come on, I'm only human. Everyone I know is getting laid, my friends, my ex, my ex before her, and my ex before her. I mean I had a hot streak after the break-up, with more quantity and quality in two weeks than I had before we got together. and then a drought, and all kinds of emotional turmoil dealing with loneliness, and being broke. It's about time I started having some fun.
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