Sock Diaries: 12/8/2012

I promised her I wouldn't write about her, so you'll just have to wonder who and what's going on there... but there's kind of a her there now. And honestly, I don't know where it's headed, but you know me, always down for a joy ride. But I do want to talk about a her. It's a her I care about deeply, but I'm no longer in a position to help her. Recent events have enlightened me to the fact that she's getting played by the guy playing her boyfriend. I saw it before but was too blinded by my own problems with my recent break-up to see it in the real situation it is. Truth is, there's not a thing I can do. And so I won't. I love her kind of like a sister, but it's time for her to fall or fly. I've spent so much of my life sacrificing my own happiness for the happiness of women. My guy friends never get into bullshit like this. I've done so much in my life to please certain women and then try to sneak some happiness in undercover, I've realized I have no time or energy for things that don't make me completely happy. If it isn't worth the effort or the distraction, I have to stay focused. I know what I want, and where I want to be. If anything holds me back, I have to either push through it, go around it, or let it go.